Almost a Year, Really?

Wow! It's truly been forever since I've posted anything! I feel like I might do something to get my follower numbers back up and regain the interest of my readers :) I have lots of reasons for not posting but it really just all comes back down to one: blatant neglect. I'm very excited to say that at least now I have a new laptop that actually works! It's Gorgeous! And a reasonably stable internet connection, so I will definitely be online a lot more and just start making a point of posting more.

But maybe it's not quantity so much as quality! Boy am I learning to implement that theory a lot! Like with my kids for example, I've been feeling like I really don't get enough time with them anymore. I liked the salad days of being the stay-at-home mom, coaching the soccer games, playing with them all day, not noticing that I'm still in my pajamas and there's food in my hair... but now, well, they're in school, I'm in school, I have homework, they have homework, they have their social life, I have a social life (maybe...do I still? :) The point is we are often busy, coexisting, living our lives...and if it's this bad already!! (Lochlan just turned 6 and Lily will be 8 in a couple weeks!)

So I've decided that it's not about quantity, how much I see them, but quality - what the time is like when I see them! :) Am I really connecting with them? Do I really listen to what follows after "Mom!" ? And how do I feel at the end of the day when they've gone to bed? I'm definitely noticing the differences between the days I've really connected with them and the days I haven't...Like yesterday.

Yesterday I had every intention of connecting with them and we started out great! Picked them up from school, went to the grocery store, let them pick out stuff for a change, came home... Lochlan got Legos for his birthday - he's so into the star wars legos now! - and we've been playing with them most days after school for the past couple weeks. So yesterday was no different, but that's somehow where I got lost in the Qvs.Q of things... Building with Legos can be very lethargic... I was trying to put a big ship together (I've never followed legos instructions really before - when I was a kid it was build whatever however you want and I was the one putting the lego trees on top of the lego cars....) Anyway, I spent an hour in the 'zone' - or maybe it was three... I had to finish! We'd started it, it had to be finished....7:00 comes around, dinners waiting to be made, kids are off doing anything else and I'm still concentrating on the lego ship...

Yeah...not so much yesterday and that @#dam# ship still isn't finished, RaR! That one part I was working on for an hour fell completely apart when I was putting on the last piece...what a pain!

Two Lessons: One, don't buy your kids lego sets if you don't want to be the one building it; and Two, if your plan is to focus on your kids and you find yourself not, Refocus, and sooner than later...

HaHa! Speaking of which, they're waiting right now to be picked up from school! :)
Gotta Run!